God never fails to surprise me and surpass my wildest expectations on these trips. This is my 3rd mission trip, all have been with VCH. As many of you know, I didn’t go the last 2 years because I was either 9 months pregnant, or had a 10 month old. My dear husband stayed behind this year with our son so that I could be the 23rd member of the team, and I know it was God working ahead of us and all around us to make it possible.
What some of you might not know about me in these past few years is the struggle I’ve been having, wrestling with God and trying to maintain my faith in Him to work out things for good in my family. Days, weeks, months went by and I became disheartened. Would God ever help my family? I can’t stand to watch this anymore, I can’t bear to go through this anymore, I’m the fixer, I should be able to fix this! I began to become resentful during this time in my life when I am supposed to be ecstatic with creating a human life. Initial fear, sorrow, and heartache turned into anger, bitterness, and a facade of indifference to my family. After nearly 2 years of dealing with the ups and downs of my family, I was ready to disown them. I was angry with God for letting this happen to my family.


Jesus was working on my heart for months to prepare me for this trip. Over the last few months, He was softening my heart, assisting me with forgiving my brother, letting go of the bitterness, and showing Himself to me in everyday little things. I was asking for God to show Himself to me in new ways, to reveal something new about Himself to me this trip, in fact it was one of my prayer requests. God gave me a yearning for this, a hunger to seek Him and learn more about Him. Interestingly, Jeremy got me reading The Spirit Who Speaks:God’s Supernatural Intervention in Your Life, a book by Peter Lawrence, a vicar in the Church of England who recounts his experiences of listening to the Holy Spirit and praying for God’s intervention in people’s lives.

The next day (day 3) at a colonia in the evening, we are praying over a woman for many things (she would ask for prayer for one ailment, then after we healed it, prayer over another- from knee to broken rib, to finally hearing). On the last item we prayed for-her ears, she said she felt a shot of heat come down on her right ear and shoot through to her left. She said she could hear better! Amen! That’s what we came to do! And there I felt it, I felt like I needed to ask her not only if she could hear better, but to ask God to speak to her. Our translator asked if she heard God’s voice and she said yes! How amazing! God gave me something to bless her, to hear the voice of God. And then the next day, I again waited, with real patience this time, and did not feel a strong message from the Spirit, but saw some amazing things and still continued to pray and see healing in the people we prayed over, because God is good!

On our final night in Nuevo Laredo, we spent some time with each other, the wonderful students at the VCH institute, and one of the co-founders, Donna Blanchard. She had a little lesson for us and led us in worship. During worship, Donna receives a word from the Spirit. She asks if anyone has been waiting to hear from the Spirit, and reports that he wants to give the gift of tongues. Immediately as Donna is revealing this information, I feel an excitement in my chest, heart pounding, rapid breathing, with a pressure welling up inside me. She continues to play her guitar and invite the Holy Spirit to be in our presence. As she encourages us to speak in tongues, I feel that same feeling in my chest move up to my throat and, unsure of what to do (I’d never spoken in tongues before), I felt God tell me, just open your mouth and relax. When I did, my mind was relaxed and foreign words were pouring out without any effort of the muscles in my face or mouth, or thought of what I was saying! I was just praising God for reaching out and blessing me in this special way! I’ve never really had any desire or intention to speak in tongues. I never saw anything wrong with it, but I just figured if God wanted me to, He would give me the gift when He saw fit. I am so thankful that He did. He gave me another little piece of Himself, revealed a little more to me that I was seeking after.

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